tonight was awesome

in so many ways.

I forced myself to do a bunch of stuff I felt too lazy to do, like go for a walk with my sis, even tho its so fun its hard to get motivated and out the door, bought new pants, bought oil for my car, brought it to get changed, went to the gym. all kinds of grown up stuff that made me feel accomplished. although as I write this I realized I missed the first, and honestly, most important day of the victoria secret semi annual sale... Ill go tomorrow but it'll be a day picked through. allora.

tonight was great. I went to a bunch of lovely girls new apartment and met some wonderful people there. and that was great.

then i went to see an old friends show whos in town from texas. it was so nice because the place was packed, but I slowly realized that i knew almost everyone there. they had all come to see him! I was so glad because he is great and also just the best person. so good to know how great our friends are, that they all showed up when he came to town.

it was also neat because Ive been feeling like such an old lady lately. and being around that crowd kinda made me feel youngish again. they are all a few years older than me and none of them seemed the least bit old, that should tell me something. also I grew up looking up to a lot of them, and I got a big reminder of who I used to be. sometimes I feel so disconnected with who i was even just a few years ago I'll swear I never even met the girl.

I also saw my first major crush (and kiss :) The boy I used to totally dress up for, if there was even a chance I might see him somewhere. The kinda crush that lets you know you're alive. And tonight, even tho we're in such diifferent, and great places in our lives, I was reminded of that. and I really needed it.

yay to new friends. yay to old friends. and yay to remembering who you are :)