I'd say this is a perfect preformance.

wow. wow Beyonce. you do deserve to be this fameous.

tonight was awesome

in so many ways.

I forced myself to do a bunch of stuff I felt too lazy to do, like go for a walk with my sis, even tho its so fun its hard to get motivated and out the door, bought new pants, bought oil for my car, brought it to get changed, went to the gym. all kinds of grown up stuff that made me feel accomplished. although as I write this I realized I missed the first, and honestly, most important day of the victoria secret semi annual sale... Ill go tomorrow but it'll be a day picked through. allora.

tonight was great. I went to a bunch of lovely girls new apartment and met some wonderful people there. and that was great.

then i went to see an old friends show whos in town from texas. it was so nice because the place was packed, but I slowly realized that i knew almost everyone there. they had all come to see him! I was so glad because he is great and also just the best person. so good to know how great our friends are, that they all showed up when he came to town.

it was also neat because Ive been feeling like such an old lady lately. and being around that crowd kinda made me feel youngish again. they are all a few years older than me and none of them seemed the least bit old, that should tell me something. also I grew up looking up to a lot of them, and I got a big reminder of who I used to be. sometimes I feel so disconnected with who i was even just a few years ago I'll swear I never even met the girl.

I also saw my first major crush (and kiss :) The boy I used to totally dress up for, if there was even a chance I might see him somewhere. The kinda crush that lets you know you're alive. And tonight, even tho we're in such diifferent, and great places in our lives, I was reminded of that. and I really needed it.

yay to new friends. yay to old friends. and yay to remembering who you are :)

ohhhh I get it now

I was hitting some button that made all my posts in hindi. wild. cool to know at least that if i need that option I can do it hah. Im sure it will come in handy one day.

anyways the post I ment to do today was about cute, actually more sorta creepy things Ive realized I did as a kid.

so my mother on christmas brought up a wild story about my cousin and I when we were about 6. I do not remember this at all but my cousin did. apparently we locked ourselves in her bathroom and our parents were freaking out because in there, locked away and up to no good, we were eating an entire huge bottle of vitamins! what a messed up thing for a couple of 6 year olds to do!! they called poisen control... my cousin told me she remembered me hugging a bowl crying saying "I know Im gonna throw uppp or dieeeee" she said our intentions were good and that we just wanted to be REALLY healthy haa but my mother said we were just being horrible children that knew it was bad and thats why we locked ourselves inside haha. oppsss. I dont know how I have no memory of this. maybe it fried that part of my brain.

second story I do remember, but hadnt thought of in yearsss. kate reminded me of tonight. when I was probably in the 12ish range Im guessing, myself, kate and jamie were playing durring coffee hour at church and our parents said it was ok if jamie and kate came over to play. so my GENIOUS 12 year old mind thought of the best trick, which I am still proud of this to this dayyy.

I ditched the two of them for a few mins and used the phone in the church kitchen and called my own house, when I got the answering machine I used the scariest wisper monster voice I could make and left "jamieee mcmullennnnnn!!!! jamie mcmullennnnnn!!!!! get out of mary's house.... RIIGHT NOWWWWWWW!!!!!!! GET OUTTTTTTTT!!!!! JAMIIEEEEEE MCMULLENNNNNNNNN!!!! GET OUT OF MARYS HOUSEEEEEE!!!! GOOOO!!!!!!!!!! GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!GET OUTTTTTTTTT!!!!"


kate walked in while I was leaving it and I think I remember telling her the phone was ringing and I just answered it for the church haha.

so the two come to my house i told them I need to check the messages if they didnt mind. I play that one and they start freakinggg outttt and I start freaking out and acting soooo scared and bugged out haaaaa. it was the best trick I ever played. I fiinally, in all of the fuss started cracking up and told them I did it and i felt like the villian explaining to them my evil plot that ended in scaring the crap out of them.

jamie got me good tonight so I dont feel too bad about posting this. but look out girl. keep that back to the wall...

सो फॉर सम रासों इ कैन ओनली ब्लॉग इन हिन्दी। वहत थे हेस्क आईएम गोंना तरी तो राइट सम वोर्ड्स ठाट डोंट एक्सिस्ट इन हिन्दी लिकीई अह्ह्ह्ह्ह्ह्ह्छ ज्क्द्न्फ्स स्ग्स ग्स्ग सफ सग सर ग ढ़ग तग डग स गफ स फ डी अ फ सफ कद्स

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first blog first blog!

Ive had so many blogs I make and then forget about. but one in particular will always stay near and dear to my heart. jamie, my brother will and i ran it when I was probably 17 or so. we just wrote a ton of fake, super emo goofy stuff in it. I wish there was some way to find it again... one post I remember that was the best that will wrote, went something like this

I am lost at sea, in an ocean of emotions
an ocean of emotions sewn into a mind quilt
and I am coming apart at the seams

sounds like it could have become ashley simpson lyrics
no offence to ashley simpson, I totally dig that first CD it rules
but girl, the lyrics goofy.